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Letters to my exes (dedicated to F)

I don’t know if I should thank you, hate you, or admit that it took me 10 years to get over you…

I’m still not ready to let anyone in, not even after such a long time because I’m afraid… I’m afraid I’ll get hurt again… And I will not have my heart broken like that ever again.

You gave me 7 years, wonderful and not so wonderful years, and I thought that I was the lucky one, that I will be one of those success stories where my first love will also be my last love… And in some ways that is true.. Just not in the romance, happy ever after way…

It was the best of times and it was the worst of times as they say… And I remember it all..

Remember how we used to fight? It was almost therapeutic, the way we screamed, the way we threw things at each other, at the walls… It has been so long since I could be totally crazy like that in front of anyone. I would scare everyone away… Few have seen me somewhat angry and they are afraid, but you… You were the one that could bring out, and also tame the crazy in me. No one does that, and I hope someone will, because otherwise I might end up driving up to a deserted hill and screaming at the stars, and it’s just not that therapeutic if there is no one to yell with you, or at you.

Remember how we used to walk for hours and talk about everything? No one does that anymore… How do we get to know someone if you don’t talk to them? The small things, the big things and all the things in between…

Remember how you used to hold my hand? I felt so safe…

I don’t know if you remember, but I remember everything and it’s a blessing and a curse… Every moment was a moment that shaped the way I feel about relationships… And I still want it all, the good, the bad, the ugly and the crazy.

Thank you for all that you have given me, but f*** you for making me afraid to love again!

 

 

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Collateral Beauty

Howard says in the beginning of the movie: We’re here to connect. Love, time, death. Now these three things connect every single human being on earth. We long for love, we wish we had more time, and we fear death.

The movie, the actors, the message… I can’t even comprehend the tragedy of losing someone so close to you, someone that is a part of you, but Will Smith made it so relatable that I can’t stop crying.

All I ever want is to be able to love someone with my whole heart and my whole being, to be completely immersed in a love that consumes you, and I believe that only a child can be the receiver of that kind of love because they are and will always be part of us. So the idea of losing that part of us is terrifying, and yet so many people live with that grief and they survive, some even thrive.

And  how do they that? I think that they have a support system, a way to vent their frustrations, a way to start rebuilding their life.

So it can be writing letters and sending them out in the Universe, running a marathon, dancing, crying, yelling… It doesn’t matter… All that matters is that people find the power to go on and that’s all that we need to do no matter what happens, just go on, live the life you deserve and be as happy as you can be!

Howard wrote 3 Letters, that made everything start to move again…

To Time, To Love, To Death.

If you open yourself and ask for help, it comes in all sort of directions.

 

And the soundtrack…

 

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Eloquence

Although I am not quite done with the book American Gods by Neil Gaiman, I can’t help myself and need to share this wonderful, wonderful, wonderful monologue given by a minor character! It encompasses the whole idea of the book and of every religion on Earth… if you believe it will be real and true, if not, then it doesn’t exist for you 🙂

“I can believe things that are true and things that aren’t true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they’re true or not.

I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and the Beatles and Marilyn Monroe and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen – I believe that people are perfectable, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkled lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.

I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone’s ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state.

I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste.

I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we’ll all be wiped out by the common cold like martians in War of the Worlds.

I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.

I believe that mankind’s destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it’s aerodynamically impossible for a bumble bee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there’s a cat in a box somewhere who’s alive and dead at the same time (although if they don’t ever open the box to feed it it’ll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn’t even know that I’m alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn’t done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what’s going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman’s right to choose, a baby’s right to live, that while all human life is sacred there’s nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you’re alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.”
Neil Gaiman, American Gods

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Books & movies

Thank you BuzzFeed for this wonderful breakdown 🙂

21 Books To Read Before They Hit The Big Screen In 2015

Looking forward to another year of awesome movie adaptations! In order of release date.

posted on Jan. 6, 2015, at 4:53 p.m.

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1. Still Alice, Lisa Genova

Pocket Books / Sony Pictures

What it’s about: The story follows Alice Howland, an accomplished professor and a mother of three grown children. She starts to lose her memory and is later diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s disease, struggling to maintain her lifestyle and sense of self. The book is heartbreaking and emotionally charged, and there’s already Oscar buzz surrounding Julianne Moore’s performance; it’s bound to be a good film to catch!

Amazon review: 4.7/5 stars

Release date: Jan. 16 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Julianne Moore, Alec Baldwin, Kate Bosworth, Kristen Stewart

2. The Mortdecai Trilogy, Kyril Bonfiglioli

Penguin Books

Lionsgate

What it’s about: Charlie Mortdecai, a charming and cultured art dealer, travels to America in search of a stolen painting linked to a lost bank account filled with gold. The book is soaked with sharp humor and it’s impossibly intriguing, making this a perfect fit for Johnny Depp.

Amazon review: 4.2/5 stars

Release date: Jan. 23 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Johnny Depp, Ewan McGregor, Olivia Munn, Gwyneth Paltrow

3. Where Rainbows End (Love, Rosie), Cecelia Ahern

Hachette Book Group

Canyon Creek Films

What it’s about: Rosie and Alex, best friends since childhood, are the type of people who should be together, even if they don’t realize it. Despite being separated as teenagers, they are inseparable via email and letters, and are constantly on the rise of a potential romance. This story comes from the same author as P.S. I Love You, so if you enjoyed that then there’s a good chance you’ll like this too.

Amazon review: 4.2/5 stars

Release date: Feb. 6 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Lily Collins, Sam Claflin, Suki Waterhouse

4. The Last Apprentice (Seventh Son), Joseph Delaney

HarperCollins

Legendary Pictures

What it’s about: Old Gregory is the Spook for the county, and he’s been trying to find a replacement for years. After testing several candidates, he comes down to the last apprentice and his last hope — Young Thomas. His first challenge is up against Mother Malkin, and people are relying on him to succeed. It’s a fantasy thriller and with Jeff Bridges at the helm, it’s a film fans are looking forward to.

Amazon review: 4.4/5 stars

Release date: Feb. 6 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Jeff Bridges, Kit Harington, Julianne Moore, Ben Barnes

5. Fifty Shades of Grey, E.L. James

Vintage

Universal Pictures

What it’s about: An innocent, independent girl named Anastasia Steele falls for a rich, powerful, and dominant man named Christian Grey. Their newly developed romance brings out the dark side in Ana and a very unusual side of Christian. The book is 530 pages of sex and BDSM with a little bit of plot in between. The theaters will be packed, but apparently there’s not nearly as much nudity as the book implies so who knows how raunchy the adaptation will be.

Amazon review: 3.4/5 stars

Release date: Feb. 13 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Jamie Dornan, Dakota Johnson, Rita Ora, Luke Grimes

6. The DUFF, Kody Keplinger

Hachette Book Group

Granville Pictures

What it’s about: Bianca Piper is somewhat of an outcast, but she has a gorgeous group of loyal friends to keep her company. When man-whore Wesley Rush calls her the DUFF (Designated Ugly Fat Friend), Bianca adds him to the top of her enemy list. But when things turn bad at home, she develops a friends-with-benefits relationship with him, and worse, falls for him the more they hang out. The movie is reminiscent of a modern She’s All That.

Amazon review: 4.3/5 stars

Release date: Feb. 20 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Mae Whitman, Bella Thorne, Allison Janey, Robbie Amell

7. Dead Stars (Maps to the Stars), Bruce Wagner

Blue Rider Press

Dan McFadden

What it’s about: Based on the early stages of the Maps to the Stars script, Dead Stars is a satirical takedown of Hollywood culture and fame. The book has mixed reviews, but Julianne Moore won Best Actress at the 2014 Cannes Film Festival for her performance in the movie.

Amazon review: 3.3/5 stars

Release date: Feb. 27 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Julianne Moore, Mia Wasikowska, John Cusack, Robert Pattinson

8. In the Heart of the Sea, Nathaniel Philbrick

Penguin Books

Warner Bros.

What it’s about: This is the true story of the whaleship Essex that was attacked by a sperm whale and left several crew members at sea for more than 90 days, resulting in desperate measures for survival. This was also the story that inspired Herman Melville’s Moby Dick. It’s a fascinating read and will no doubt be just as intriguing to see on screen.

Amazon review: 4.6/5 stars

Release date: March 13 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Chris Hemsworth, Cillian Murphy, Charlotte Riley

9. Insurgent, Veronica Roth

HarperCollins

Summit Entertainment

What it’s about: The second book in the Divergent series, Insurgent continues Tris’ fight against Jeanine Matthews and her brutal agenda that threatens to tear society apart and kill Divergents. The book is exciting and hard to put down, and hopefully the movie will follow the novel more than the previews imply.

Amazon review: 4.5/5 stars

Release date: March 20 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Shailene Woodley, Theo James, Ansel Elgort, Kate Winslet

10. Serena, Ron Rash

HarperCollins

Magnolia Pictures

What it’s about: The book is a thrilling story that follows newlyweds George and Serena Pemberton on their journey to create a timber empire and ruthlessly kill all who fall out of favor. When Serena finds out she can’t bear children, she seeks to murder the illegitimate child she believes George is trying to protect. We’ve seen JLaw and Bradley Cooper kill it on screen before, so hopefully we’re in for a treat.

Amazon review: 3.8/5 stars

Release date: March 27 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Jennifer Lawrence, Bradley Cooper

11. The Longest Ride, Nicholas Sparks

Hachette Book Group

Town and Country ./ Photograph by Noe DeWitt

What it’s about: Like any other formulated Nicholas Sparks book, this story involves romance, secrets, relationship problems, and scenes that will make you cry. The Longest Ride is a story of two couples whose lives intersect in profound ways. If you’ve read or seen any other Sparks creations and loved them, this will most likely be no different. Also, say hello to Clint Eastwood’s hot son.

Amazon review: 4.6/5 stars

Release date: April 10 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Scott Eastwood, Britt Robertson

12. The Moon and the Sun, Vonda N. McIntyre

Pocket

Paramount Pictures

What it’s about: Set in 17th-century France, King Louis XIV is on the quest to immortality by way of a captured sea woman, but Marie-Josephe is determined to save the mermaid’s life, for she is not the monster so many people believe her to be. Pierce Brosnan stars and hopefully dominates.

Amazon review: 3.8/5 stars

Release date: April 10

Starring: Pierce Brosnan, William Hurt, Benjamin Walker, Kaya Scodelario

13. Child 44, Tom Rob Smith

Grand Central Publishing

Summit Entertainment

What it’s about: Leo Demidov, a loyal and dedicated officer of Stalin’s Soviet Union, is demoted and exiled when he begins to investigate a serial killing of children. Admitting that these crimes are being committed is a crime itself against the State. Demidov and his wife Raisa set out to find the killer, and uncover shocking revelations in the process.

Amazon review: 4.3/5 stars

Release date: April 17

Starring: Tom Hardy, Gary Oldman, Noomi Rapace

14. Far from the Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy

Cornhill Magazine

Fox

What it’s about: A classic love story you probably read as part of your high school’s curriculum, Far from the Madding Crowd is about an independent, beautiful woman who attracts three very different suitors: a shepherd, a sergeant, and a rich bachelor. The novel is about tough choices, the nature of relationships, and bouncing back from hardship. Carey Mulligan will make a great Bathsheba!

Amazon review: 4.4/5 stars

Release date: May 1 (Click here to watch the trailer.)

Starring: Carey Mulligan, Michael Sheen, Matthias Schoenaerts, Tom Sturridge

15. Paper Towns, John Green

Penguin Group LLC

Ian Gavan / Getty

What it’s about: Margo Roth Spiegelman, the unattainable girl next door, convinces Quentin to embark on a journey of revenge, but come the next morning, Margo has gone missing and has left clues for Q. He and his friends go on a road trip in search of M, unsure if they will find her dead or alive. If you like John Green books (The Fault in Our Stars), then this should be right up your alley.

Amazon review: 4.3/5 stars

Release date: June 19

Starring: Cara Delevingne, Nat Wolff

16. The Scorch Trials, James Dashner

Delacorte Press

Fox

What it’s about: The second book in the Maze Runner series, Thomas and the Gladers are entering phase two of their “trials” and race to earn a cure for the Flare virus. Chased by Cranks and facing a series of dangerous weather conditions, the boys attempt to complete their mission. The book is just as thrilling as the first and no one is complaining about seeing Dylan O’Brien return to the theaters.

Amazon review: 4.4/5 stars

Release date: Sept. 18

Starring: Dylan O’Brien, Kaya Scodelario, Thomas Brodie-Sangster

17. Black Mass, Dick Lehr and Gerald O’Neill

PublicAffairs

Cross Creek Pictures

What it’s about: Based on the chilling true story of John Connolly and James “Whitey” Bulger, an FBI agent and the leader of an Irish mob, this book details the dark deal between the pair that spiraled out of control. It’s a compelling read, but what’s more interesting is the wig Johnny Depp is sporting.

Amazon review: 4.2/5 stars

Release date: Sept. 18

Starring: Johnny Depp, Benedict Cumberbatch, Dakota Johnson, Sienna Miller

18. Frankenstein (Victor Frankenstein), Mary Shelley

CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform

Davis Entertainment

What it’s about: Frankenstein is of course the story of Victor Frankenstein and his creation of a monster built from several corpses. This movie is based on the contemporary adaptations of Mary Shelley’s book and instead focuses on Igor, Victor Frankenstein’s hunchbacked young assistant. It’s an interesting take on a classic tale and Daniel Radcliffe will obviously be great.

Amazon review: 4.2/5 stars

Release date: Oct. 2

Starring: Daniel Radcliffe, James McAvoy

19. Jungle Book, Rudyard Kipling

CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform

Larry Busacca / Getty

What it’s about: An orphan boy named Mowgli is raised by a pack of wolves and befriends a bear named Baloo and a black panther named Bagheera. It’s a classic story and the talented cast of the film makes this a wildly anticipated live-action Disney release.

Amazon review: 4.3/5 stars

Release date: Oct. 9

Starring: Scarlett Johansson, Idris Elba, Bill Murray, Lupita Nyong’o, Christopher Walken, Ben Kingsley

20. Mockingjay (Part 2), Suzanne Collins

Scholastic Press

Lionsgate

What it’s about: The last book of the Hunger Games series, Mockingjay is the completion of Katniss Everdeen’s rebellion against the Capital and her fight to bring President Snow down. The last movie is going to be amazing, but the fact that it’s almost over reallyblows… (sorry)

Amazon review: 4.3/5 stars

Release date: Nov. 20

Starring: Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson, Liam Hemsworth

21. The Martian, Andy Weir

Random House LLC

Chris Jackson / Getty

What it’s about: Astronaut Mark Watney was one of the first people to land on Mars, and he’s sure to be the first person to die there. After his crew believes Mark died from a dust storm, he’s stranded and completely alone with no way to signal Earth. With the recent trend of space movies (seriously though, what is going on?), this is bound to be another awesome but stressful two hours at the movies.

Amazon review: 4.6/5 stars

Release date: Nov. 27

Starring: Matt Damon, Jessica Chastain, Jeff Daniels, Kristen Wiig

CORRECTION

Astronaut Mark Watney was originally listed as the first person to walk on Mars in “The Martian” but he was actually one of the first people to walk on Mars. Sorry! Jan. 6, 2015, at 7:59 p.m.

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History – with a twist

As you may or may not know, I love my vampire books and movies and when I discovered Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter by Seth Grahame-Smith I was very very curious to read it. And it did not disappoint me. It had everything I expected, some history, some philosophy and even some comedy 🙂

“History remembers Abe’s towering intellect but forgets that, in those days, he was more towering than intellectual.”

A little philosophy…

“It is their nature, beautiful and simple. That you would destroy such beings, Mr. Lincoln, such superior creatures, seems madness to me.”

“That you speak of them with such reverence, Mr. Poe, seems madness to me.”

“Can you imagine it? Can you imagine seeing the universe through such eyes? Laughing in the face of time and death—the world your Garden of Eden? Your library? Your harem?” 

“You speak of eternal life. You speak of indulging the mind and body,” said Abe. “But what of the soul?”

“And what use is a soul to a creature that shall never die?”

Abe couldn’t help but smile. Here was a strange little man with a strange way of seeing things. Only the second living man he’d ever met who knew the truth of vampires. He drank to excess and spoke in an irritating, high-​pitched voice. It was hard not to like him.

“I begin to suspect,” said Abe, “that you would like to be one of them.”

Poe laughed at the suggestion. “Is not our existence long and miserable enough?” he asked, laughing. “Who in God’s name would seek to prolong it?” 

A little comedy…

“My men have suffered greatly (from boredom), much blood has been shed (by mosquitoes), and I have swung my ax mightily (chopping firewood). Surely we have earned our place in the annals of history—for never has there been so little war in a war.” 

“I think common-looking people are the best in the world. That’s why the Lord makes so many of them.”

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Respect

Some books are not easy to categorize. For example Me before you written by Jojo Moyes is a book about love, but not the classical romance with the expected ending. It tested my patience, my psychological knowledge and last, but not least my capacity to hold it together 🙂 Wonderful characters and wonderful storytelling make it easy for this book to have a big impact on anyone reading it. And the biggest lesson I learned from this book is that “You know, you can only actually help someone who wants to be helped”, and we all need to respect that.

‘So … ’

‘You’re not going to –’

‘I’m not going to try and change your mind.’

‘If you’re here, you accept it’s my choice. This is the first thing I’ve been in control of since the accident.’

‘I know.’

And there it was. He knew it, and I knew it. There was nothing left for me to do.

Do you know how hard it is to say nothing? When every atom of you strains to do the opposite? I had practiced not saying anything the whole way from the airport, and it was still nearly killing me. I nodded. When I finally spoke, my voice was a small, broken thing. What emerged was the only thing I could safely say.

‘I missed you.’

He seemed to relax then. ‘Come over here.’ And then, when I hesitated. ‘Please. Come on. Right here, on the bed. Right next to me.’

I realized then that there was actual relief in his expression. That he was pleased to see me in a way he wasn’t actually going to be able to say. And I told myself that it was going to have to be enough. I would do the thing he had asked for. That would have to be enough.

I lay down on the bed beside him and I placed my arm across him. I rested my head on his chest, letting my body absorb the gentle rise and fall of it. I could feel the faint pressure of Will’s fingertips on my back, his warm breath in my hair. I closed my eyes, breathing in the scent of him, still the same expensive cedar-wood smell, despite the bland freshness of the room, the slightly disturbing scent of disinfectant underneath. I tried not to think of anything at all. I just tried to be, tried to absorb the man I loved through osmosis, tried to imprint what I had left of him on myself. I did not speak. And then I heard his voice. I was so close to him that when he spoke it seemed to vibrate gently through me.

‘Hey, Clark,’ he said. ‘Tell me something good.’

I stared out of the window at the bright-blue Swiss sky and I told him a story of two people. Two people who shouldn’t have met, and who didn’t like each other much when they did, but who found they were the only two people in the world who could possibly have understood each other. And I told him of the adventures they had, the places they had gone, and the things I had seen that I had never expected to. I conjured for him electric skies and iridescent seas and evenings full of laughter and silly jokes. I drew a world for him, a world far from a Swiss industrial estate, a world in which he was still somehow the person he had wanted to be. I drew the world he had created for me, full of wonder and possibility. I let him know a hurt had been mended in a way that he couldn’t have known, and for that alone there would always be a piece of me indebted to him. And as I spoke I knew these would be the most important words I would ever say and that it was important that they were the right words, that they were not propaganda, an attempt to change his mind, but respectful of what Will had said.

I told him something good.

Time slowed, and stilled. It was just the two of us, me murmuring in the empty, sunlit room. Will didn’t say much. He didn’t answer back, or add a dry comment, or scoff. He nodded occasionally, his head pressed against mine, and murmured, or let out a small sound that could have been satisfaction at another good memory.

‘It has been,’ I told him, ‘the best six months of my entire life.’

There was a long silence.

‘Funnily enough, Clark, mine too.’

And then, just like that, my heart broke. My face crumpled, my composure went and I held him tightly and I stopped caring that he could feel the shudder of my sobbing body because grief swamped me.

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Dark Lover

It’s the final day of the year and my thoughts turn back to a book I once read… one of my first steamy, sexy, vampire series called The Black Dagger Brotherhood. The first book of the series, Dark Lover just made my brain and heart melt and all I want for next year is a hot love affair with a tall, dark and handsome man, just like the one illustrated below 🙂 and let’s not forget the fact that he was accepted by the cat! 🙂

And then she saw that Boo had sat down on his haunches and was purring as if he were welcoming someone he knew.  What the… The man from her dream was on the other side of the screen.  Beth leaped back and dropped the washcloth, dimly hearing the fleshy flop when it hit the floor.  The screen slid open. In spite of the fact that she’d locked it.  And that wonderful smell got thicker as he stepped into her home.  She panicked, but found she couldn’t move.  Oh, man, he was colossal. If her apartment was small to begin with, he turned it into a shoe box. And all that black leather just seemed to make him bigger. He had to be six-feet-six, two seventy-five at least.  Wait a minute.  What was she doing, measuring him for a suit? Running, she should be running. She should be making a break for the other door, running like hell.  But all she could do was stare at him.  He was wearing a biker jacket in spite of the heat, and his long legs were covered in leather as well. He had steel-toed shitkicker boots on, and he moved like a predator.  Beth craned her neck to look up at his face.  God, he was gorgeous.

His jaw was a straight shot of bone, his lips full, the hollows under his cheeks casting heavy shadows. His hair was straight and black, falling to his shoulders from a widow’s peak, and he had the shadow of a dark beard. The black sunglasses he wore, wraparounds that fit his carved face perfectly, made him look like a hit man. As if all that menace wouldn’t have given him away as a killer.  He was smoking some kind of thin, reddish cigar, and he took a long drag, the end flaring bright orange. He blew out a cloud of that fragrant smoke, and as it hit her nostrils, her body loosened even further.  He must be coming to kill her, she thought. She didn’t know what she’d done to deserve a hit, but as he breathed out another drag of whatever he was smoking, she could barely remember where she was. Her body swayed as he closed the distance between them. She was terrified of what was going to happen when he reached her, but noticed, absurdly, that Boo was purring and wrapping himself in and around the man’s ankles. That cat was a traitor. And if by some miracle she lived through the night, he was getting downgraded to Tender Vit-tles. Beth’s neck jacked back up as she met the man’s steady, feral gaze. She couldn’t see the color of his eyes through the glasses, but his stare burned. And then the extraordinary happened. As he stopped in front of her, she felt a blast of pure, unadulterated lust. For the first time in her life her body got wickedly hot. Hot and wet. Her core bloomed for him.  It was chemistry, she thought numbly. Pure, raw, animal chemistry.  Whatever he had, she wanted.  “I thought we’d try this again,” he said.  His voice was low, a deep rumble in his solid chest. He had the sliver of an accent, but she couldn’t place it.